I promised to let you all know what I did yesterday during my living blog time. As I was blogging there was a movie on. I don't remember what it was, but I watched it. It had Heath Ledger in it. And I drank coffee. Then I got up and took my time getting ready to go. That is a luxury, may I just say? I had no interruptions at all. Ahhhh. I went to the hotel gift shop, which must cater to senior citizens for the most part. And then I went to the apple orchard and picked a bunch of apples. I also got one more donut. After that I picked up a bit to eat and went back to the hotel where I ate and sat and read my book. That was around 1pm. I read from 1pm to almost 4pm. Uninterrupted. Except for the part where they served tea and sweets and I got up long enough to have a delicious cup of tea and a scrummy piece of cheesecake and a mini chocolate tart (I love the word scrummy. OK, It's not really a word, but it should be). I guess I technically wasn't supposed to have that since we had checked out by then, but I missed tea time the day before. I was just making up for my lost opportunity. So there. It was a lovely, lovely day.
I laughed yesterday when I looked at my labels and how many posts are under the "me" label. Since this blog is kind of all about me and what I want to say, I guess I should probably take that one off. And I know that sounds so snotty and like I am all wrapped up in myself, but I hope my friends can vouch for me that I am not normally so self-centered.
OK, now that I've gotten all that out of the way, on to today's post. . .
Do you ever wonder how I decide on what to write every day? Well I'll tell you. Some days I know exactly what I want to write about. And some days (like today) I sit at the computer just staring at it. I'll sit hoping for something decent to write about and then it will hit me (that was yesterday, and I hope it's safe to say that yesterday's post was decent). I even have a little list of "topics" to write about on my blackberry. They are my back-up plans in case I can't think of anything else to write about. Sounds silly, but I am always worried I won't find anything to say. (You can stop laughing now.)
I always want my posts to be really super good. But I guess anyone who is writing a blog wants all their posts to be really super good. Some days are better than others though. I can sometimes tell if a post is going to be really good or not when I first start writing it. Do you wonder what I am thinking of this one so far? Um, it's not good. Oh dear. I can't believe I just admitted that to you. Wait - keep reading - hopefully it will get better. If nothing else, I hope my side comments will keep you entertained. . .
I have very rarely ditched a post I started writing. I guess I like to see whatever I'm writing about through to the end. I think that's why I actually finished writing the book I started. Once I started it, I knew I wouldn't be able to stop writing till it had a conclusion to it. I feel the same way about reading books. It is a rare occasion when I will not finish a book, even if it's a lousy one. I still have to see how it ends (zzzzzzz, oh dear me, you all are falling asleep now aren't you? Think of something cute and clever - quick!)
I bet you are all thinking I should have ditched this post. But I can't. I don't know why I am compelled to sit here and blather on about something that really is not going anywhere, but I just can't stop. It's like a brain dump. Sorry I am dumping it on you! (Seriously, my four official followers, don't leave me. I'll do a better post tomorrow, I promise!)
So today I sit and know I didn't write an excellent post. I sit and wonder if I should have gone to my "topics" note in my blackberry. I have gone back and read over what I have written here several times this morning. And then I stress out because I really want people to continue reading my blog. I think about going through and deleting the whole thing and starting over. But I can't do that either. You know why? You don't? Shoot, I was hoping you would have the answer to that question. Cos I don't know either. I guess it has something to do with the time it takes to create the posts. It's not that long, but it is still a chunk of time I have taken to create something. And if I ditch it, then it's like admitting I wasted time there. (Yes. Very unhealthy of me that I can't let it go. But don't worry, I have a very good therapist.)
I will do better tomorrow. I have to go run now. I don't want to, but I have to work off that cheesecake from yesterday. Plus, since this was not a good post, you know tonight I'm totally going to have an extra scoop of ice cream. I leave you today with this - and sorry, it's all I've got. Ready? Here goes - The sun will come out. . .tomorrow. . .bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow. . .there'll be sun ;)